The Grief Diaries 8

The 8th post in my 'grief diaries' series where I share my experiences coping with my husband's death.

Previous 'grief diaries:
- Grief Diaries 1
- Grief Diaries 2
- Grief Diaries 3
- Grief Diaries 4
- Grief Diaries 5

- Grief Diaries 6

- Grief Diaries 7

It never gets any easier, does it?

I find myself asking this question at random times when the grief comes out of nowhere. I thought the worst was over, but I keep finding new, more profound levels of grief.

I'm sure the latest wave of grief is because we just hit the 7-month mark of James being gone.

7 months seemed to be a big deal for us as a couple. We met & were engaged within about 7 months. Then, James's cancer battle lasted about 7 months. It's so mind-blowing to me that so much can happen in such a short time.

I went from being a single person to meeting James & being engaged all within 7 months. Then, 15 years later, I watched James go from almost perfectly healthy to dying all within 7 months. You just never know what life will send your way--good or bad.

That's probably why I was so into the "Life is short. Make it sweet." movement. I witnessed firsthand how quickly life can change & end. I so desperately wanted everyone else to see it too, but I've since scaled that back quite a bit. I had to realize that it's above my pay grade to try to convince anyone of anything.

The only thing I know for sure is that I am forever changed by this experience. I had to do things I never imagined I would do. I still carry that with me & it influences how I approach life.