The Grief Diaries 2

This is the second post in my 'grief diaries' series where I share my experience in coping with my husband's death.

Leaving the hospital after James's death will probably be the most surreal experience of my life.  

James died at Cleveland Clinic Main Campus, which is an absolutely huge hospital.  It is quite a walk to get to inpatient rooms.  On the lower level of the hospital are areas where testing is done & also the cafeteria.  There are many different little places to walk through on the way out & people are everywhere, going to & from different areas.

James was actually admitted to the hospital on the Sunday morning before he died.  By the time he was admitted, it was around 3am.  My dad was with me when we decided to go home & sleep for a few hours.  Because it was so early in the morning, there was no one at all on the way out.  It was eerie & peaceful at the same time.

When James died, we left the hospital at around noon.  It was pretty much peak time for foot traffic.  It was so surreal leaving my husband & going out in the world again.  I remember walking past all those people who knew nothing of the absolute tragedy I had just went through.  It was so strange to me that something so significant could happen to me & no one around me knew anything about it.

Waiting for the elevator for the parking garage was a baby in a stroller.  That hit me hard.  That little child has so much life ahead of her & my life as I knew it had just ended.  My husband's life had ended hours before.

It really put into perspective how precious life is & how anything could happen to anyone.

Other 'Grief Diaries' posts
- Grief Diaries 1