15 Years

Our 15th wedding anniversary.

Today was our 15th wedding anniversary.

We were one of those cutesy couples who got married on 09.08.07.

I spent the day keeping myself busy, so I wouldn't have to think about our anniversary so much. Of course, it didn't work.

I can't help but wonder where we would be if James was still here.

Our "honeymoon" was an overnight trip to a small town in Maryland & we always talked about going back there. I wonder if this would have been the year. I remember we ate at this beautiful Italian restaurant in town.

Instead, I spent the day hiding from the fact that my life would never be the same. That the marriage & life James & I worked to build is gone.

It's funny; I went to the thrift store today to take my mind off things & ended up buying a couple furniture pieces. James always had the measurements of our vehicle in his head & would tell me if something would fit or not. He was also an expert at stacking things into our vehicle. I had to get help carrying stuff to the car today & I'm sure James would laugh at how they were stacked inside.

I look at these pictures & see so much innocence. If you had told me then how this would have all played out, I know I would have approached many things differently. However, one thing would remain the same; I wouldn't have missed it for the world.